Sometimes I Feel My Life Is A TV Show.

So I know I haven't updated for a week but its because I didn't know what to write.  I have things to write about I just don't know if i feel ready for them to be on a screen, open for the world to see, to judge.  Let's go back to last weekend.  This past weekend I went to a church retreat, Listen, and I went into with a close minded attitude and left feeling tired, happy, and not liking a few people.  I came home to some disturbing news from a friend that I'm still processing. Fast forward a couple days and its Tuesday! I go back to school having TONS to talk about and L just had to pass notes to me. HA! L is sooo weird, she thinks that just because I'm hot I will make-out with her, major EW! I would rather go gay then make-out with her!  So last night I went to Mamma Mia! and it was AMAZING! It is totally my favorite musical now.  I can't wait for a theater around here to do it because I will totally audition for it!!!  So now today, Thursday, I have auditions for a solo at choir and I am not ready at all.  I don't really feel like auditioning for getting a solo, it just doesn't seem like a big deal to me like some people think it.  I know this is random but i just need to say it! I feel like I'm hiding so many things for myself and for others that one day its all going to come out and its going to hurt people.  Thankfully I have friends to talk to (J and W).   I guess I will see where the road takes me today....