Sometimes I Feel My Life Is A TV Show.

So I know I haven't updated for a week but its because I didn't know what to write.  I have things to write about I just don't know if i feel ready for them to be on a screen, open for the world to see, to judge.  Let's go back to last weekend.  This past weekend I went to a church retreat, Listen, and I went into with a close minded attitude and left feeling tired, happy, and not liking a few people.  I came home to some disturbing news from a friend that I'm still processing. Fast forward a couple days and its Tuesday! I go back to school having TONS to talk about and L just had to pass notes to me. HA! L is sooo weird, she thinks that just because I'm hot I will make-out with her, major EW! I would rather go gay then make-out with her!  So last night I went to Mamma Mia! and it was AMAZING! It is totally my favorite musical now.  I can't wait for a theater around here to do it because I will totally audition for it!!!  So now today, Thursday, I have auditions for a solo at choir and I am not ready at all.  I don't really feel like auditioning for getting a solo, it just doesn't seem like a big deal to me like some people think it.  I know this is random but i just need to say it! I feel like I'm hiding so many things for myself and for others that one day its all going to come out and its going to hurt people.  Thankfully I have friends to talk to (J and W).   I guess I will see where the road takes me today....

Why???

The weekend came and went with a blink of an eye!!!  I feel like I got most of my sleep back but not all of it. LOL  Yesterday school went fine and the day just flew by!  I think I was just wanting it to be over. HA  Im getting sick and tired of life, friends, and stupid things that people worry about.   

So, now that its October I usually pull all my books filled with Urban Legends, Witchcraft, and Ghost Stories out and so far I haven't, until last night.   I stayed up til 12:30 reading about the history of Wicca, Satanism, and Witchcraft.  Personally, the occult fascinates me how people can think that Magick works.  Its very interesting and also very dangerous to study into something like Satanism because you are dealing with forces beyond your control!  So i would not advise it to everyone.  I have always found an interest in the paranormal and the occult.  That doesn't mean I am going to become a Satanist or a Wiccan, it just means I knowledge myself about things that are apparent in todays culture and the media.  As a book I am reading says, "The Media Is Run By Witches"  LOL  I love that quote because its true!!! 

Well, now that you know i love weird history of random things I think its time to say good-bye!

Oh, anyone have any good websites for Haunted places in Central Illinois????

Life......

so its finally Friday!!!  THANK GOD!!!!!  This week has probably been the worst week of my life! I have had a ton of homework that has just gave me the biggest headache EVER and its made me very irritable, moody, and sleep deprived.  Food is another issue, i haven't been eating very much lately either, I think my friends are worried about me and the whole food and sleep issue.  (No need to worry guys, im totally fine! If i wasn't you would hear about it.)  

Thursday my best friend in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD and i started to plan graduation!  I never knew how stressful something like that could be, but it is. LOL  So we have started planning where, when, colors, decorations, food, people, speaker, our outfits, and performances.  WOW! THAT'S ALOT! I will keep all of that updated as soon as i have more info. 

Jess, my BFF, and I are going to a Halloween Party this month and we have started getting our costumes together! YAY!  I can't wait because we are going as, well...you will just have to wait and see. HEHE i know, Im mean!!!  

Well, that's all for now.  Now, im off to bed and hopefully gain my week's worth of sleep back!!!

First Post....

So this is my first post, its going to be short but I thought I would explain why I am starting a blog.   

I feel like I need to get my thoughts and feeling out in words and through music, videos, and quotes and a blog would be the perfect place to do that!  So, I am going to keep this updated through my senior year of high school.   YAY!  I can't wait to be out, but dreading it too.